Hello Dear Readers,
How are you all doing? Doing well, I hope! I am so-so, as I venture into a new month with who knows what surprises or dreaded stuff around the corner, but isn’t that every day? We really don’t know the future, and yet, when you’re dealing with major life-changing events, those everyday unexpected things can seem so much bigger or scary. Which is why I need to really focus on the promises of God right now.
I had asked God a very specific question the past couple months and last week He answered me with a reassuring answer. Then I prayed for confirmation and He confirmed it, and He keeps confirming it to me randomly. However, when I shared this answer with someone important to me, they doubted that I hear God, again. It happened in the past too. And I won’t lie, it hurt a lot because despite God telling me everything is going to be okay, they said it won’t happen. As if I had just imagined it over and over again. And despite pressing into my Lord, that He would not answer me. Well my friends, He has. And I had hoped that their reaction would be a little more encouraging or at least not a knock. Instead I get left with even more pain. I know what I heard. Again, and again. They said it would take a loud booming voice of God to convince them of it. And yet, how does God usually talk to people? Many places in the Bible, it is in a still, small voice. I was reminded of that at last weekend’s services.
It was the story of how Elijah went up a mountain, asking God for some big sign, and God gave him a show all right – a storm, a fire, and an earthquake, but he could discern that God was not in those things. Finally, at the end of it all, he heard God’s still, small voice. It was at the end of all the hoopla, not during it. And then God asked him what he was doing there when all he really was should have done was go back to what God called him to do originally. No big signs and wonders, no miracles, just being obedient to the call of God. And that is what I hope to do.
Despite any uncomfortableness, uncertainty, naysayers, hurt, sadness, doubts & fears, I hope and plan to keep doing what God has called me to which is to just keep following Him. Not to make my own plans and wander far from Him. Not to ignore his still, small voice, and not to just guess what He wants, but to keep seeking His Will and Wisdom in everyday life. To keep leaning into Him, and not giving up despite how easy that would be. And you know what? This has possibly been the most trying time of my life, but also the closest I’ve ever been to my Lord & Saviour, because He is Faithful. He makes promises that He keeps – as it says in the Bible, He is not man that He should lie, and right now that is the most comforting thought as I really don’t know the future and I don’t know what kind of other uncomfortable things will occur in the next year or more, but I know that He will be right there beside me and He will provide all that I need, and bring life to this hurting soul. I am so thankful for every moment I can spend with Him talking, worshiping, and enjoying His presence and for all the wonderful people He is sending into my life again. I need this so much, and He knows it. I am reminded that regardless of how the world treats me, I am special in His Eyes, a jewel, precious to Him and worth more than gold.
And I have a place being prepared for me in Heaven whenever He calls me home, which is so exciting as I long to be immersed in His Perfect Love completely. I had a dream about it a year or two ago, and it was amazing, but alas it is not my time yet. He still has plans for me, I just need to be patient and allow His Grace to be enough for me – easier said than done when reality hits. But Lord Jesus is so awesome!!
Btw, if you were touched by these words or wish to share a personal testimony of how God is working in your life right now, feel free to comment below or share this post. Thank you so much!
God Bless you!