Revelation & Hope

Hello Dear Readers,

Long time no hear? Yup, that’s me. I barely write in but when I do – look out world! ;p Anyhoo, just thought I’d pop in and tell you a bit about my faith life right now. I have gone through a LOT of emotional rollercoasters since last blog post. Found out some truly hurtful things happening, and recognized all the evil that’s been going on on the other side of the mountain so to speak. But God… even through this trial by fire, He never lets me give up. Trust me, I almost did many times. Between people judging me for hanging on to hope, to being thrown to the wolves, to getting stabbed emotionally and painfully more than once, and worry creeping in, it’s been a hectic ride folks. Yet God says, “Keep praying. Don’t give up.” There is hope and His Name is Jesus. He has outlasted the enemy of our souls in the battle to save humanity, and He died for me and my family and friends, neighbours, co-workers, and everyone around the world that we might have eternal life. All it takes is a little faith in Him and the will to keep following Him – taking up our ‘cross’ daily. It takes prayer, sometimes fasting, discipline, fellowship, study, meditation, living in the Spirit not in the flesh, living in the Light & Truth of God’s Word, instead of our emotions, repentance and forgiveness. It also takes much humbleness & thankfulness because if we’re not acting in this way, we’re probably living in pride which is what brought the devil down from Heaven in the first place. He wanted to be God and have His Worship. He thought he was better than God and decided to do things his way, but we all know how that turned out. And ultimately, how it will turn out. One thing I’ve noticed is there is a lot of hurt amongst Christian communities as we all continue to live in sin, without repentance, and continue to live our lives for ourselves – in our selfish nature, unless we have revelation of this, and sadly many don’t, we end up living a life of misery and failure, unfulfilling and sad. God wants us to have His best and in order to do that we need to die to self daily, we need to keep surrendering our lives to Him and praying for discernment and wisdom as the enemy tries to keep us from following Him by whispering in our ears lies and all sorts of deceit to lead us off the narrow and straight path. It sadly is happening amongst those closest to me and it saddens me. I feel burdened to pray for them unceasingly and I am. I believe God has a Plan just as He has promised in His Word and the more I keep holding on to these Words, the more light and hope I see at the end of the tunnel. So no matter what you’re going through, believe that God will make a Way and ask Him what His Will is for your life. He will let you know if you’re listening and seeking Him with your whole heart. He has and continues to do so for me. So believe!

Till next post,

~*Roxy*~

God’s Encouragement

Hello SharingMomLife Reader(s),

I say reader(s) as I really don’t know how many people actually read my blog, but even if only One does, I’m fine with that. He is the only one that I need to know is reading, if there is more, then great! It’s a good day. I got to clean out my fridge yesterday, and finally pulled it out with hubby’s help after about 7 years… there were tons of dust balls and other things there that shall remain nameless for this blog post, but let’s just say, I’m soooo happy that it’s done! And yes, I clean my fridge more often, but haven’t had the energy to clean behind it yet so this is BIG. So thankful my whole family got into it, helping with vacuuming, emptying/filling the fridge and going through everything, and all that hard work. It sure made it less daunting than had it been only me. ;p So yeah, *victory dance*!!!

Also, yesterday I got to pick up a dresser that my boss at work told me about someone was giving away. I thought, “Sure, why not? I could use one.” So hubby went and picked it up, and boy was it a nice one – just like new and a nice design/colour too! *Big win!* So I had some shelf liner lying around and decided to ‘make it mine’ by lining the inside with flower/leaf-designed liner. Turned out not bad seeing as how I haven’t done this many times in my life lol! I immediately went to work loading it up with some personal items and offered the other half of it to my hubby who is probably less enthusiastic about filling it, but hey, that’s okay too. I know, I’m easy to please. It’s a big deal to me! ^_^ So I say, I am blessed.

Today in ‘Winterpeg’, it’s a bright sunny day and I’m happy for the sunshine and that I got to go to church despite a late night issue and lack of sleep. I am still blessed. I asked God to speak to us this morning, and He did – at least I know He spoke to me, and probably everyone else in the church as He does, and it was no small matter. The topic was where is God when major tragedy and bad stuff happens? The pastor said two things – one was that he doesn’t know. In that, who are we to try to even understand God’s reasoning for everything when we are like a ladybug (yay for that term!) in comparison to Him in terms of size, years of living, wisdom, knowledge, etc. That was a really good perspective to put it into, and spoke to me especially as I’m going through major things right now that I can’t even begin to describe here, and will not go into further online. Just know that they are HUGE. And secondly, the pastor asked, “How do we know that God loves us?” Well, it says so right in His Word, John 3:16, which most people know by heart, whether secular or not. It’s, “For God so loved the world that He gave His One and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.” NIV. I think many people might just brush that off, but not me because I realize the power of faith and trust that God does and is working in our lives, even when we don’t see it right away. He has blessed me beyond measure since I’ve known Him, despite all the trauma and tragedy, and constant battles of everyday, He is my constant and I’m so thankful that even though I screw up on a daily basis in many ways, He has promised me eternal life with Him in Heaven and pulls me through everything I battle. I don’t need to pay the ultimate price for my sins, because of what He’s done on the cross. It’s that simple, yet so profound! Can you imagine sacrificing your only child to redeem the lives of everyone? I can’t, and I won’t even try. But He Loves us that much! Amen.

Just enjoying God’s Encouragement and Grace and Love. He is with us.

Till next blog post,

*~Roxy~*

He Holds me in His Hands

Hello Dear Readers,

It’s been a while since I’ve posted, so thought I’d share some of what is going on with me right now. You know, some me stuff & faith stuff. I guess, firstly, as I’ve been trying ever harder to just embrace being myself, I’ve been enjoying having a goal to do at least one creative thing a day or every second day. And with having kids, that part’s not too hard to do. Like recently, the kids decided they both like the idea of having a Mario themed room, so we’re slowly working on their theme every day. So far, we’ve collected some Mario/Luigi keychains, pull pack racers, stickers, made some wooden Mario blocks, a wooden Yoshi egg, & piranha plants among other things. I just finished sketching a Mario picture for one of the kids and just need to color it, still deciding what medium I’m going to use, but I am thinking a mix of paint and color pencil? Yup, fun, fun fun! But of course, it can’t all be fun… right?

I don’t know about you, but I don’t have cable or a newspaper so the way I get most of my news now is online via email newsletters or social media, and the news that I’ve been getting has been weighing on me pretty hard. I know I’m a sensitive person, as my Mom always said, but this has been so saddening for me hearing about all the evil spreading worldwide – if it’s possible – even moreso than before. I am hurt to hear about all the people being chased away, tortured & killed for their faith in Christ, though they will be rewarded for not giving in to the enemy, they are still suffering so much and it’s all I can do to stop crying. I am praying almost non-stop at times, just praying for their help and rescue. And as I get to know the character of God more each day, I know this can’t be easy for Him to watch, yet it is allowed for now. There seems to be no end to the violence, hatred, persecution, disaster, disease epidemics, genetic modification of food, chemical infiltration, the list goes on… But I am comforted knowing that my God is here with us, and with everyone who calls on the Lord, Jesus in sincerity. He is here as He always was, and His Spirit leads us to a place of peace in all situations, however long it may take, we can rest assured that His Love for us never fails and that we have something better to look forward to in the future. For those times when I’ve felt the sting remembering our loss of a child, or previous hard times in my relationships, job loss, health issues, near-death experiences, it all boils down to one thing: trust in God. He is Holding me right now in His Hands, and not just Holding as one holds a child, but really Holding me up. His Support and Provision these past 3 or 4 months has been ever increasing, and I think it’s because I’ve been asking Him to help us be ready for His Return (which is imminent btw). How else can I be ready unless I get to know the REAL Jesus? The character of God is amazing beyond words, it is difficult for me to imagine why anyone would ever want to NOT have Him in their lives, but I think it’s because in reality, those who have not tasted what the true God’s Love is like, by being in relationship with Him, would not realize what they’re missing out on hence why I pray for those around me every day that they too would finally turn to Him. And you know what? He has been working in those around me, even though it may not be obvious, I know He is! It’s all the little things that I notice about others, or about even His Love in my own life – He is a God of details after all! Yes, every detail, every hair on our heads are numbered – He cares that much!! I am so in awe of all the ways He’s been showing me He cares! Lately, I guess as I grow closer to Him, I’ve been taking notice even more, but everything He does is amazing really. Lots of free stuff given to me that I’ve always wanted but could not afford to get, little blessings and big ones, new friends, improvements in my relationships, unexpected money, healing & help… the list goes on! :) Thank you, Jesus! You Deserve ALL the Praise, Honor & Glory!!

So in the midst of my daily struggle with the world getting ever darker, I am comforted that my Savior is with me and those around me, that He Cares and His Great Mercy abounds in everyday life, we just need to stop and take notice! Too much Facebook has been causing me much time slippage, but I’m determined not to fall back into that pit, so with His Help I am going to try harder not to get sucked into the vortex of ‘social media’ as it has been dubbed. I need some time to just sit in His Presence and listen to the One Who Made me and Loves me.

God Bless!

*~Roxy~*

 

Healing…

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I don’t know if anyone reads my blog or not, but tonight I am crying inside again. Don’t know why per say, but maybe just want to write something down to help me feel better. Just need to breathe somehow…

Ever have a problem with the way you see yourself? Ever feel like a piece of junk, like you’re the biggest wreck in the world? Yup, that’s me right now. I know spiritually it’s wrong to think that, as I know that God Loves me, and I have far more worth to Him than I could ever imagine, and yet… I am still like a child who’s been hurting all her life. I am a new creation in Christ, but I am still in need of healing. I can’t go into too much detail online, but basically I need prayer. Prayer for healing of my emotions, self-esteem, and any effects of different life trauma to be released from my being. It wrecks a person so bad.

Most of my life I’ve struggled with being myself – why? (And yes, I have written about this before). Because I was always compared to others in a bad way – You’re slow as a turtle, Are you purple?, The immigrants can get a job why can’t you?, You’re just like your Dad, You’re just like your Mom (my parents separated when I was 11), and to top it all off, my sibling always got what they wanted, and I got nothing I wanted. My art got criticized a lot as a kid which hurt even more since that was something I cared about deeply, both by family and by friends. And growing up I was either too fat, too skinny, too flat, too short, too ditzy, too smart, too much of a loner, too shy, too slow, dressed too well, dressed too down, too — you name it – I seemed to be too much everything bad. It was a terrible way for a kid to grow up – at least emotionally. Physically I had food, clothing, shelter, education, medicine, health, so, “Boo hoo!” I know. North American mentality – there’s people out there struggling to stay alive. I really don’t have a reason to complain, just always felt like I’m not good enough for anyone, and sometimes, the day to day stuff is easier to handle than the emotional stuff that just messes people up. And it probably doesn’t help being female because we are hormone driven… ugh! It’s not fun let’s put it that way…

So yeah, I’ve been asking for prayer over the past month or so for healing emotionally, and God is doing a good work in me, but I must keep pressing forward no matter how icky I feel sometimes. I must push away all bad thoughts about other people, insecurities, doubts, fears, wrestle with my inner being, tell myself that I am a new creation in Christ and believe it because God’s Word is truth, and I know He never steers me wrong. I start feeling bad with certain triggers, and I mostly know why now – poor self-esteem. And I’m working on improving that, so no worries, but I will get there eventually. It’s a love – hate relationship, just can’t seem to completely get out of this stuff, thankfully I know that even though I can’t, God can, and will. He will pull my hand and lift me out so long as I let Him. That’s the thing with God, He doesn’t force you to listen, He may give you a push in a certain direction but ultimately it’s your choice to listen or not. So I pray that I will keep listening to Him. Can I get an Amen?! Amen.

Until Next Post,

*~Roxy~*

A Day in the Life

I felt like writing something amazing, but I don’t think I have it in me today; I’m tired, sore from a workout the other day, been fighting a cold for the past week and a half, lost a relative recently and might lose a friend soon due to illness, can’t seem to lose weight despite all my efforts, feel like there’s still a wedge between me and someone close which makes me sad/upset, can’t wait for changes with family life & work schedule,  have a ton of sewing I want to do/have to do but no energy/focus and my hubby is struggling with stuff too so its been a rough time, long days & nights spent praying, thinking, asking for help. God hears us, I must be patient. Even though all seems chaotic, still i am blessed. Praise God, He is Good!

Blessings,
SharingMomLife

Joseph Prince Ministries

Hello Readers,

As I am always seeking to learn and grow in my faith in Christ, I started to look into personal study a while back, and I came across this show: Joseph Prince Ministries on TV. It is honestly one of the best ministries I’ve come across as every time I watch one of his sermons, I walk away with something deep to think about; something that God wants to tell me, and it’s awesome. This guy is definitely annointed as his sermons are powerful and full of God’s Word and the Gospel message. There is something truly refreshing about his sermons, and I think part of that is the fact that he does not beat around the bush so to speak, but rather, that he brings all facets of the bible to the forefront, and does not confine his topics to those that are typical of most churches in North America, or mainstream stuff. If this post resonates with you, I encourage you to head over to this site to watch some of his sermons: http://www.lightsource.com/ministry/joseph-prince-ministries/. He also has a website at www.josephprince.org. I pray that this ministry will be a blessing to you and yours as you seek to further your study of the Word.

Blessings,Roxy

Clean Detox diet (week 2 close)

Hello again readers,

As I reflect on the 2nd week of this cleanse, I realize just how much self-control I’ve had to have, and I’m quite shocked at how well I’ve done so far. I mean, yes, it’s hard not snacking, especially on things that I crave like sugar and chips, but what’s even harder for me anyways, is the fact that I have to have soup for supper every single day! And normally I’d be fine having soup most days, but I’m one of those people who just really enjoys hearty soups – soups with some meat to them. I like potatoes and tomatoes, or to thicken soups with flour/cornstarch, but I can’t have any of those things on this diet. And last night was no exception – I finished off some spaghetti squash soup from the night before, and yes, it’s tasty because it has some sweetness to it, but either the texture or the sweetness made me feel like throwing up. I think I’m reaching my limit  in terms of the soup thing, so I may have to resort to smoothies for suppers as well as my morning ones. I just really like thicker/heartier soups and this weak, all-veggie stuff is getting me down. Other than that, I’m happy to report that I’ve lost some poundage – 5 lbs to be exact. And that’s fine by me. I realize that I need to do more exercise in order to tone up more, but so far, I’m pleased that my pants are fitting me better. I’m still not down to what I was last january (before I got pregnant and had a miscarriage), but I’m getting there. My body just needs to get back to it’s normal metabolism/pace and I know the pounds will melt right off. At least that’s the way it’s always worked with me. I’m usually pretty good about eating healthy/keeping snacking in check, but I had gone through much depression last year, so it is even more significant to me that I’m doing this cleanse as it’s further motivation to keep eating right and to exercise more. I spent enough time feeling bad, which is fine, as everyone needs time to grieve, but now it’s time for change. I’m also in a transition phase of where I’m trying to earn some extra money for our family, through our book cover design business, and by trying to find work. Please pray for us that everything works out soon, as these are tough times and I am trying to keep faith that things will improve. I’m doing my part to move forward, I just need some extra help from above. Thanks!

God Bless you,

Roxy