Today marks one year from the day that I went in for day surgery to clean out my body after having a miscarriage. Today last year I had to say goodbye to a baby I never met in person, but whom I carried for almost 3 months in my womb. Today I am sad, yet joyful that God made the decision He did as He knew that in this point in time we would not have the finances to care for another child, and that perhaps other issues would be at play. I miss our little one, but I am reminded that God Loves all of us, and His Ways are not mine, and His Plans are not my own, and that He does know best. It was a long road of depression to get to the place I am at now, and yes, I still grieve just not so often and the pain is not so intense as I know where my child is. And he or she is in Good Hands – God’s Hands. So in all this, I am reminded that I am not alone.
If anyone reading this has recently miscarried, know this, that God Loves your child too, and he or she is in a better place. By all means, as much you love your child, we need to also realize, that no matter how much it hurts that we cannot see our little ones right now, that God is taking good care of them in Heaven. And Heaven is the best place to be – hey, it’s where I want to be – and it doesn’t get better than that! In Heaven, there is no pain, no sadness, no hurt, no hunger, no sin, no fears, just love. LOVE. Imagine that. Just love. I can’t wait!!
I am reminded that God’s Love is all encompassing so much so that even in the midst of my despair, He is there, and He is changing me from the inside out, where it counts. I don’t need to carry all my hurts anymore, because I am a new creation in Christ. There IS hope, no matter what anyone else thinks, because He Is God. Amen.
May God comfort all those who are hurting right now, and may He show you the joy and hope that He has in store for you.