He Holds me in His Hands

Hello Dear Readers,

It’s been a while since I’ve posted, so thought I’d share some of what is going on with me right now. You know, some me stuff & faith stuff. I guess, firstly, as I’ve been trying ever harder to just embrace being myself, I’ve been enjoying having a goal to do at least one creative thing a day or every second day. And with having kids, that part’s not too hard to do. Like recently, the kids decided they both like the idea of having a Mario themed room, so we’re slowly working on their theme every day. So far, we’ve collected some Mario/Luigi keychains, pull pack racers, stickers, made some wooden Mario blocks, a wooden Yoshi egg, & piranha plants among other things. I just finished sketching a Mario picture for one of the kids and just need to color it, still deciding what medium I’m going to use, but I am thinking a mix of paint and color pencil? Yup, fun, fun fun! But of course, it can’t all be fun… right?

I don’t know about you, but I don’t have cable or a newspaper so the way I get most of my news now is online via email newsletters or social media, and the news that I’ve been getting has been weighing on me pretty hard. I know I’m a sensitive person, as my Mom always said, but this has been so saddening for me hearing about all the evil spreading worldwide – if it’s possible – even moreso than before. I am hurt to hear about all the people being chased away, tortured & killed for their faith in Christ, though they will be rewarded for not giving in to the enemy, they are still suffering so much and it’s all I can do to stop crying. I am praying almost non-stop at times, just praying for their help and rescue. And as I get to know the character of God more each day, I know this can’t be easy for Him to watch, yet it is allowed for now. There seems to be no end to the violence, hatred, persecution, disaster, disease epidemics, genetic modification of food, chemical infiltration, the list goes on… But I am comforted knowing that my God is here with us, and with everyone who calls on the Lord, Jesus in sincerity. He is here as He always was, and His Spirit leads us to a place of peace in all situations, however long it may take, we can rest assured that His Love for us never fails and that we have something better to look forward to in the future. For those times when I’ve felt the sting remembering our loss of a child, or previous hard times in my relationships, job loss, health issues, near-death experiences, it all boils down to one thing: trust in God. He is Holding me right now in His Hands, and not just Holding as one holds a child, but really Holding me up. His Support and Provision these past 3 or 4 months has been ever increasing, and I think it’s because I’ve been asking Him to help us be ready for His Return (which is imminent btw). How else can I be ready unless I get to know the REAL Jesus? The character of God is amazing beyond words, it is difficult for me to imagine why anyone would ever want to NOT have Him in their lives, but I think it’s because in reality, those who have not tasted what the true God’s Love is like, by being in relationship with Him, would not realize what they’re missing out on hence why I pray for those around me every day that they too would finally turn to Him. And you know what? He has been working in those around me, even though it may not be obvious, I know He is! It’s all the little things that I notice about others, or about even His Love in my own life – He is a God of details after all! Yes, every detail, every hair on our heads are numbered – He cares that much!! I am so in awe of all the ways He’s been showing me He cares! Lately, I guess as I grow closer to Him, I’ve been taking notice even more, but everything He does is amazing really. Lots of free stuff given to me that I’ve always wanted but could not afford to get, little blessings and big ones, new friends, improvements in my relationships, unexpected money, healing & help… the list goes on! :) Thank you, Jesus! You Deserve ALL the Praise, Honor & Glory!!

So in the midst of my daily struggle with the world getting ever darker, I am comforted that my Savior is with me and those around me, that He Cares and His Great Mercy abounds in everyday life, we just need to stop and take notice! Too much Facebook has been causing me much time slippage, but I’m determined not to fall back into that pit, so with His Help I am going to try harder not to get sucked into the vortex of ‘social media’ as it has been dubbed. I need some time to just sit in His Presence and listen to the One Who Made me and Loves me.

God Bless!

*~Roxy~*

 

Christmas Crafts

Christmas Sign/Hanger

Mini Stockings

As busy as the past month has been and will continue to be, I’ve been really enjoying making Christmas decor, crafts and baking! That being said, I’ve also been sleeping less, so am a bit groggy in the mornings with so much to keep me busy each day that I find I can’t finish all the other projects I have to do. What’s a busy Mommy to do? :) Well, first thing I decided was to follow something my hubby suggested – to do one thing at a time! Sounds simple enough yet how many women know how to stop multi-tasking and just do One.Thing.At.A.Time? I struggle with that always, but I’m getting better at focusing by keeping this advice in mind. I find when I’m at work especially, it’s so easy to get overwhelmed if there’s too much going on at once, but if I take the time to set one task before me and purposely not think about the rest I am way more productive and less stressed out in the end. Yay! Thanks, Sweetie! You’re awesome! Anyhoo, so far I’ve sewn some homemade mini stockings for my kids, and just finished a charming Christmas sign/hanger. You can use the hanger for whatever you want, but since we don’t have a mantle it also makes a nice place to hang stockings! Bonus! ;)

Also, my youngest wanted to make cookies today so we made some yummy chocolate ones – they were supposed to be cut out cookies but the recipe was terrible for rolling so we made due and I formed them into balls, then flattened with a fork. Oh well! They still taste good. :p

Chocolate Cookies

I need to make sure that tomorrow I don’t get distracted by other cool ideas and buckle down to finish more important projects lol!

‘Till Next Time,

☆~Roxy~☆

Healing…

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I don’t know if anyone reads my blog or not, but tonight I am crying inside again. Don’t know why per say, but maybe just want to write something down to help me feel better. Just need to breathe somehow…

Ever have a problem with the way you see yourself? Ever feel like a piece of junk, like you’re the biggest wreck in the world? Yup, that’s me right now. I know spiritually it’s wrong to think that, as I know that God Loves me, and I have far more worth to Him than I could ever imagine, and yet… I am still like a child who’s been hurting all her life. I am a new creation in Christ, but I am still in need of healing. I can’t go into too much detail online, but basically I need prayer. Prayer for healing of my emotions, self-esteem, and any effects of different life trauma to be released from my being. It wrecks a person so bad.

Most of my life I’ve struggled with being myself – why? (And yes, I have written about this before). Because I was always compared to others in a bad way – You’re slow as a turtle, Are you purple?, The immigrants can get a job why can’t you?, You’re just like your Dad, You’re just like your Mom (my parents separated when I was 11), and to top it all off, my sibling always got what they wanted, and I got nothing I wanted. My art got criticized a lot as a kid which hurt even more since that was something I cared about deeply, both by family and by friends. And growing up I was either too fat, too skinny, too flat, too short, too ditzy, too smart, too much of a loner, too shy, too slow, dressed too well, dressed too down, too — you name it – I seemed to be too much everything bad. It was a terrible way for a kid to grow up – at least emotionally. Physically I had food, clothing, shelter, education, medicine, health, so, “Boo hoo!” I know. North American mentality – there’s people out there struggling to stay alive. I really don’t have a reason to complain, just always felt like I’m not good enough for anyone, and sometimes, the day to day stuff is easier to handle than the emotional stuff that just messes people up. And it probably doesn’t help being female because we are hormone driven… ugh! It’s not fun let’s put it that way…

So yeah, I’ve been asking for prayer over the past month or so for healing emotionally, and God is doing a good work in me, but I must keep pressing forward no matter how icky I feel sometimes. I must push away all bad thoughts about other people, insecurities, doubts, fears, wrestle with my inner being, tell myself that I am a new creation in Christ and believe it because God’s Word is truth, and I know He never steers me wrong. I start feeling bad with certain triggers, and I mostly know why now – poor self-esteem. And I’m working on improving that, so no worries, but I will get there eventually. It’s a love – hate relationship, just can’t seem to completely get out of this stuff, thankfully I know that even though I can’t, God can, and will. He will pull my hand and lift me out so long as I let Him. That’s the thing with God, He doesn’t force you to listen, He may give you a push in a certain direction but ultimately it’s your choice to listen or not. So I pray that I will keep listening to Him. Can I get an Amen?! Amen.

Until Next Post,

*~Roxy~*

True Love

As I was reading today’s Our Daily Bread verse, (Revelation 22:1-5), it reminded me of a dream God gave me recently and I want to share it with you. It was all about preparing to go to Heaven and symbolic of the trip to Heaven.

It started out with me going into a building, and seeing one of our close Christian friends sitting in a room in front of a portal of swirling fire. It was freaky with many demons sticking their heads out (and maybe claws too, I can’t remember). They wanted to eat or kill me and they had super long sharp teeth – yikes! Our friend told me to walk through and I would be okay. I looked at the fire again and was creeped out. I knew those things were from Hell.

Next thing I did was walk outside around the back of the building and found a door which I knew led to the room with fire so I was a bit hesitant to open it, but by faith I opened it and when I did I was relieved to see it empty except for an old man standing beside a table. I knew that because I had accepted Jesus as my Savior I didn’t have to worry about Hell since He had overcome it for me. Such symbolism!

I was with other people now including my husband. Next, the man was giving each person two certificates – I think with two different colors. He gave me mine and I walked outside, but when I checked my pocket I only found one so I anxiously went back to the man to tell him, but then I found the other paper so I was super relieved. I knew that these symbolized my ticket to Heaven.

Then it was time to go to Heaven, so we walked outside to what looked like the seats of a roller coaster and got in. My hubby was sitting beside me and my hubby’s sister was in the seat in front of us. We had to buckle up. Now as an aside – I don’t like roller coasters in real life, I find them scary, so in my dream it took lots of trust for me to sit in that seat, but I knew God would keep me safe so i did so anyways.

Next it was time to go up into Heaven – praise God!! So the man, (or angel?) In charge of the ride got in and we started to rise off the ground and were going straight up into space! I was screaming from the thrill, “Woohoo!” – and joy of finally going to be with Jesus. My soul was so happy!

Suddenly, we burst through the Earth’s atmosphere and I could see a million beautiful stars twinkling and I was so thrilled to be there. This travel took what seemed like only a couple seconds. And next thing I knew, we were pulling into Heaven.

My dream ended just after this, but as we were entering Heaven I saw a room set up like a store with tons of toys on the shelves that an angel was in charge of and I felt joy knowing that was for all the kids to enjoy there – I was happy for my kids too! God loves children so much!

Before my dream ended, I remember thinking with excitement, “I’m finally here!!” I was finally home! What a comforting feeling – so amazing!! ^_^ Suddenly God’s all encompassing Love surrounded me and filled me like a huge hug!! And I felt love like no other I EVER felt before – it was like a combination of romantic love, friendship love, sacrificial love, fatherly love and more!! WOW. I am so blessed that God showed me a preview of His full presence! I think its because I had been asking to feel His Love for a long time, and now I know what its like as a whole! I share this story with every Christian I know because its a reminder of why we look forward to Heaven. I think sometimes people get so caught up in religion and day to day life that they forget why Heaven is exciting. And for a Christian that is a sad state to be in – we should all be excited to tell others the reason for our joy in Salvation – Jesus Loves us – God Loves us!! What more do we need?!

Blessings,

Roxy

Passion

Hey there,

Long time no blog! How’s life? Me? Life is tricky but it is well with my soul. Today I cried out to God for help, a way out and encouragement and He gave me all 3! He is awesome like that!

But what I want to share the most is this:

Whatever you do for God do it with passion. Anything else is as filthy rags to God. So don’t kid yourself; if you’re not passionate about what you do and after praying about it nothing changes, its probably time to change it up. Just ask Him for a way out, He knows what we can handle, and is merciful when we ask for help!

P.S. – If you’ve never experienced the life changing power of God’s free gift of Salvation and want to know more please reply below with the subject “Salvation”. Be blessed!

 

A Day in the Life

I felt like writing something amazing, but I don’t think I have it in me today; I’m tired, sore from a workout the other day, been fighting a cold for the past week and a half, lost a relative recently and might lose a friend soon due to illness, can’t seem to lose weight despite all my efforts, feel like there’s still a wedge between me and someone close which makes me sad/upset, can’t wait for changes with family life & work schedule,  have a ton of sewing I want to do/have to do but no energy/focus and my hubby is struggling with stuff too so its been a rough time, long days & nights spent praying, thinking, asking for help. God hears us, I must be patient. Even though all seems chaotic, still i am blessed. Praise God, He is Good!

Blessings,
SharingMomLife

Re-Using & Re-Upholstering Fun!

Does your city or town offer a re-using weekend like our Give-Away Weekend where neighbours put out working/bed-bug free items on the front curb for others to use instead of throwing them away? Well, every year, the kids and I like to go on a kind of scavenger hunt to look for completely useful stuff that others are just giving away to save the earth and money at the same time! And this year, we came across many items, including some bar stools that had clearly been well-used, but had potential for being used again.

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This is one of the stools before I took them apart – nice pattern but very worn and faded!

So the boys and I packed them up into our van and drove them home. They sat around for a while as I had just started working again and became very busy with that, but one day recently I finally sat down and decided to do some re-upholstering using some pop-culture Batman fabric I had got at the store before.

So I had previously unscrewed the chair pads from the stool frames, used a staple remover to take out all the staples, and took off the fabric and foam underneath as shown below.

barstool fabric mesh liner wood seat

I then washed the foam and fabrics on gentle cycle in the washer so they were nice and clean and wiped down the chairs as well. Next I laid out the old stool fabric onto the new fabric I bought and traced on the wrong side of the fabric the shape of the old one and cut out the pieces. Then I placed the new fabric face down, with the chair pad, and wood bottom on top and asked my hubby to carefully stretch the fabric over the edges of the bottom of the underside of the wood so I could staple gun the fabric onto the wood. Lastly, I placed the black mesh liner fabric on top of the stapled down printed fabric and stapled it down, then re-screwed the chair pad to the stool frame and repeated for the remaining chair. They turned out pretty good and the boys love to sit on them at our homemade breakfast nook! Bonus! :P

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So it just goes to show, one person’s trash really is another person’s treasure – it just takes a little effort sometimes. ;)

DIY Fall Wreath

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Back when the leaves were just starting to fall off the trees, I finally got around to sitting down and working on a Fall wreath for our door. I had wanted to make one for a while so it felt good to finally do it! I had taken my boys to a playground that evening so my youngest offered to help me find the prettiest leaves (and he did)! After the kids went to bed I got to work using the basic straw wreath I had gotten for free on giveaway weekend, (the best idea ever here in Winnipeg), and started wrapping it half in burlap, and half in ribbon. I had done a general search online to get inspired, then took elements of different wreaths I saw online and combined them to make something more personal. Of course I had to make it a monogram wreath, even more special! :) So I got out my hot glue gun and started gluing all the leaves to the bottom in beautiful array, adding on a craft ladybug on top afterwards since I find them cute! I figure that even though the leaves will dry out and crumble, I can always add new ones on next year so why not? Its nice to have that natural element in there anyways. :)

I also took a wooden craft ring I had and made the monogram with a piece of paper trimmed to the same size circle and glued to the back of it. I enjoy drawing so I added some extra touches to the letter ‘F’ and coloured it in. Using a ribbon I had tied around the ring prior to gluing the paper to the back, I tied the ring to the wreath itself, being careful to center it in the wreath. And I wrote a ‘Welcome’ sign on the other side of the circle in case it ever flips over when closing the door. :) Then I got out my wreath hanger, and hung it on the door, all set to be viewed by whoever comes by! Yay! I finally got this done, feels good to do crafts – it’s been too long! I am thankful that I get to do stuff like this still, and that my boys are young enough to appreciate it. :) What have you been up to??

~Roxy~

DIY City!

It’s been crazy over at our house – between re-organizing, DIY, and just overall busyness, yup, crazy! But at the same time, it feels good to get things out of the way that should have probably been done a long time ago, but just never got done. Sometimes I think it takes a bit of frustration to get the final push to be inspired and to do something you’ve wanted to do for a while, because hey, we all get lazy or tired don’t we? Add to that a new job and a busy season, and it’s cause for chaos, but thankfully God is here! I have been praying non-stop, and asking for prayers too on different matters, and God is so Good! He has been letting us know just how much He cares, and though we know this, it’s been rough at times when we’re on the edge of our seats so to speak, waiting for answered prayers. Thank you to all who have been praying with us, you know who you are! :) And so, I’d like to share a couple projects with you that I’ve been working on – here and there.

DIY Breakfast Bar

Every time we’ve dismantled an old TV unit or otherwise, we’ve been keeping the boards for future projects, and being someone who enjoys repurposing, here is one thing I came up with: a mini breakfast bar for our narrow kitchen! It was too crowded with the square table we had in the kitchen so I decided to use that as my sewing table now, and to put up a simple shelf in the kitchen to save space and for the boys to sit at/rest stuff on without taking up all our floor space – and the kids love it! (bonus!) It only took one evening to do too, so even if your time is limited, you can do something like this to free up space :)

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Basically, I used my stud finder to locate the wall studs, drew some faint pencil lines to mark where those were on the wall, then drew a straight line across the stud lines (using my level). Next, I held the shelf brackets against the wall at the stud points one at a time as I traced the screw holes onto the wall for drilling points, making sure to put the brackets evenly along the level pencil line. I pre-drilled deep holes into the wall studs, got out my drywall screws, screwed the brackets to the wall, then I found some short screws, layed the shelf carefully on top of the brackets, traced the bracket holes onto the bottom of the shelf, (making sure the shelf was sitting evenly across the brackets), pre-drilled shallow holes into the bottom of the shelf, then screwed on the shelf to the brackets – et voila! A mini breakfast bar!

DIY Inset Bedroom Shelf

My youngest’s room has always had a little nook sort of in the wall, so I finally decided to make it into an inset bedroom shelf to clear up his floor as his room is pretty tiny and it always gets messy. As I layed out the brackets (which were just repurposed baseboards), I got the idea to make the bottom shelf into an inset desk for him to sit at since there isn’t room for a separate desk in his room. So off I went to work measuring, leveling and cutting boards! This was way trickier than the other shelf as one of the walls is at a weird angle so the back of the shelf is slightly shorter than than the front, hence, I had to measure out the exact shape onto the repurposed shelving from my father-in-law. It worked, but it was a lot more complicated than I wanted it to be. However, that’s to be expected with an older house I guess lol! Anyways, in the end I’m quite happy with it, it’s not perfect, but its perfect for my little guy and he likes it so that’s all that matters :)

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As you can see, he can fit quite a bit of his stuff on there, plus there’s room enough at the bottom that he can work on his kid computer or play with his mini house. :) Cute!

Hope your DIY projects are going well, and God Bless you!

P.S. – Feel free to share your own adventures in DIY by leaving a msg below. And if you like what you see, please Pin some for me! Thanks!

Keep Going!

~Roxy~

Walking Through Streets Of Life

Hey Folks,

Today, after a nice long (2hr) walk with my hubby talking about different facets of our lives, I just felt like I should write something so here it is: life is amazing even in the most mundane aspects of it. The fact that we’re here, breathing, controlling most of our body by sheer will all through electrical impulses, growing every day in some way, never mind all the unique talents and traits we each have, the list goes on… is all amazing. Many people do not look at the ‘minor’ things, or take notice of how God interacts in our everyday lives, but I am one of those people who is all about the details. Sometimes too much detail for my own good mind you, but still, that’s how I was designed, and it was for a purpose. It doesn’t matter what anyone else tells you with regards to the special traits you possess, so long as God knows you’re doing your best to use those traits for good, that’s what matters. I learned this the hard way, but I guess that’s the only way I would ever have learned it.

You see, I was pretty stubborn as a kid, but I can say that God knew better and so allowed me to experience many hardships throughout childhood and beyond in order for me to come to the realization that I was spoiled, I didn’t appreciate what I had, didn’t even realize what I had I guess at one point, until my family hit rock bottom. It was rough, and don’t get me wrong, I hated it, and despised myself for many years afterwards because I felt so ashamed of my life. I was depressed, and that lead to me hurting myself and others in different ways, mostly subtle, but in the end, God knew that it would all work for my own good, so He allowed it. And I’m thankful for that, because now that I’m a parent, I can relate to the feeling of wanting my own children to appreciate what they have, and who they have in their lives, including God. And it would be so easy to continue to spoil them, sheerly out of the desire to show them love, but there is something to be said as well for tough love. As when you know that someone does not appreciate what they have, they need to experience a time of less – not to deprive, but to take note of all that they already have/who is in their lives, and to realize that they have much to be thankful for. Especially in this era we live in, at least in North America, where we have so much, so easily available to us, even those of us who are part of the ‘working poor’, we have SO much. How much do you need to live? Well, coming down to basics, we need to stay hydrated, and we need rest, and nutrients of some sort, and medical care when necessary, as well as shelter/clothing to keep us warm and safe. The rest is gravy really, but you would never say that to someone in our society, they would call you crazy. But really, TV’s, computers, furniture, cars, fancy clothing and devices, games, videos, etc., they are all extras. Sure, in our part of the world, we thrive on living online, using computers in pretty much every industry we have, but isn’t that a dangerous thing? Think about it – if anything was to happen to our electronics or internet, we’d all be in the dark – literally. We probably don’t have much skills to keep going, short of any possible camping skills we may have, or special training, but for many people, when the power goes out, they panic. It’s inevitable when your whole society is used to living off the latest technology. Anyways, where I’m going with this is, I have realized throughout my years of having less than everyone around me, that life will go on if I don’t have everything that everyone else has. That is because God knows what I need, and those things quite honestly, I don’t need. He may decide to bless me here and there with something extra special, (which He does), but He is more concerned about my walk with Him than showering me with the latest trendy stuff. As the responsible Father that He is, He allows me to struggle with some things for a while, usually until I realize that I can’t do it without Him, then He comes alongside of me and holds my hand. And THAT my friend is all the reminder that I need to know that I am blessed. Amen.

~Roxy~