Hello Dear Readers,
It’s been a while since I’ve posted, so thought I’d share some of what is going on with me right now. You know, some me stuff & faith stuff. I guess, firstly, as I’ve been trying ever harder to just embrace being myself, I’ve been enjoying having a goal to do at least one creative thing a day or every second day. And with having kids, that part’s not too hard to do. Like recently, the kids decided they both like the idea of having a Mario themed room, so we’re slowly working on their theme every day. So far, we’ve collected some Mario/Luigi keychains, pull pack racers, stickers, made some wooden Mario blocks, a wooden Yoshi egg, & piranha plants among other things. I just finished sketching a Mario picture for one of the kids and just need to color it, still deciding what medium I’m going to use, but I am thinking a mix of paint and color pencil? Yup, fun, fun fun! But of course, it can’t all be fun… right?
I don’t know about you, but I don’t have cable or a newspaper so the way I get most of my news now is online via email newsletters or social media, and the news that I’ve been getting has been weighing on me pretty hard. I know I’m a sensitive person, as my Mom always said, but this has been so saddening for me hearing about all the evil spreading worldwide – if it’s possible – even moreso than before. I am hurt to hear about all the people being chased away, tortured & killed for their faith in Christ, though they will be rewarded for not giving in to the enemy, they are still suffering so much and it’s all I can do to stop crying. I am praying almost non-stop at times, just praying for their help and rescue. And as I get to know the character of God more each day, I know this can’t be easy for Him to watch, yet it is allowed for now. There seems to be no end to the violence, hatred, persecution, disaster, disease epidemics, genetic modification of food, chemical infiltration, the list goes on… But I am comforted knowing that my God is here with us, and with everyone who calls on the Lord, Jesus in sincerity. He is here as He always was, and His Spirit leads us to a place of peace in all situations, however long it may take, we can rest assured that His Love for us never fails and that we have something better to look forward to in the future. For those times when I’ve felt the sting remembering our loss of a child, or previous hard times in my relationships, job loss, health issues, near-death experiences, it all boils down to one thing: trust in God. He is Holding me right now in His Hands, and not just Holding as one holds a child, but really Holding me up. His Support and Provision these past 3 or 4 months has been ever increasing, and I think it’s because I’ve been asking Him to help us be ready for His Return (which is imminent btw). How else can I be ready unless I get to know the REAL Jesus? The character of God is amazing beyond words, it is difficult for me to imagine why anyone would ever want to NOT have Him in their lives, but I think it’s because in reality, those who have not tasted what the true God’s Love is like, by being in relationship with Him, would not realize what they’re missing out on hence why I pray for those around me every day that they too would finally turn to Him. And you know what? He has been working in those around me, even though it may not be obvious, I know He is! It’s all the little things that I notice about others, or about even His Love in my own life – He is a God of details after all! Yes, every detail, every hair on our heads are numbered – He cares that much!! I am so in awe of all the ways He’s been showing me He cares! Lately, I guess as I grow closer to Him, I’ve been taking notice even more, but everything He does is amazing really. Lots of free stuff given to me that I’ve always wanted but could not afford to get, little blessings and big ones, new friends, improvements in my relationships, unexpected money, healing & help… the list goes on! Thank you, Jesus! You Deserve ALL the Praise, Honor & Glory!!
So in the midst of my daily struggle with the world getting ever darker, I am comforted that my Savior is with me and those around me, that He Cares and His Great Mercy abounds in everyday life, we just need to stop and take notice! Too much Facebook has been causing me much time slippage, but I’m determined not to fall back into that pit, so with His Help I am going to try harder not to get sucked into the vortex of ‘social media’ as it has been dubbed. I need some time to just sit in His Presence and listen to the One Who Made me and Loves me.