Revelation & Hope

Hello Dear Readers,

Long time no hear? Yup, that’s me. I barely write in but when I do – look out world! ;p Anyhoo, just thought I’d pop in and tell you a bit about my faith life right now. I have gone through a LOT of emotional rollercoasters since last blog post. Found out some truly hurtful things happening, and recognized all the evil that’s been going on on the other side of the mountain so to speak. But God… even through this trial by fire, He never lets me give up. Trust me, I almost did many times. Between people judging me for hanging on to hope, to being thrown to the wolves, to getting stabbed emotionally and painfully more than once, and worry creeping in, it’s been a hectic ride folks. Yet God says, “Keep praying. Don’t give up.” There is hope and His Name is Jesus. He has outlasted the enemy of our souls in the battle to save humanity, and He died for me and my family and friends, neighbours, co-workers, and everyone around the world that we might have eternal life. All it takes is a little faith in Him and the will to keep following Him – taking up our ‘cross’ daily. It takes prayer, sometimes fasting, discipline, fellowship, study, meditation, living in the Spirit not in the flesh, living in the Light & Truth of God’s Word, instead of our emotions, repentance and forgiveness. It also takes much humbleness & thankfulness because if we’re not acting in this way, we’re probably living in pride which is what brought the devil down from Heaven in the first place. He wanted to be God and have His Worship. He thought he was better than God and decided to do things his way, but we all know how that turned out. And ultimately, how it will turn out. One thing I’ve noticed is there is a lot of hurt amongst Christian communities as we all continue to live in sin, without repentance, and continue to live our lives for ourselves – in our selfish nature, unless we have revelation of this, and sadly many don’t, we end up living a life of misery and failure, unfulfilling and sad. God wants us to have His best and in order to do that we need to die to self daily, we need to keep surrendering our lives to Him and praying for discernment and wisdom as the enemy tries to keep us from following Him by whispering in our ears lies and all sorts of deceit to lead us off the narrow and straight path. It sadly is happening amongst those closest to me and it saddens me. I feel burdened to pray for them unceasingly and I am. I believe God has a Plan just as He has promised in His Word and the more I keep holding on to these Words, the more light and hope I see at the end of the tunnel. So no matter what you’re going through, believe that God will make a Way and ask Him what His Will is for your life. He will let you know if you’re listening and seeking Him with your whole heart. He has and continues to do so for me. So believe!

Till next post,

~*Roxy*~

Promises

Hello Dear Readers,

How are you all doing? Doing well, I hope! I am so-so, as I venture into a new month with who knows what surprises or dreaded stuff around the corner, but isn’t that every day? We really don’t know the future, and yet, when you’re dealing with major life-changing events, those everyday unexpected things can seem so much bigger or scary. Which is why I need to really focus on the promises of God right now.

I had asked God a very specific question the past couple months and last week He answered me with a reassuring answer. Then I prayed for confirmation and He confirmed it, and He keeps confirming it to me randomly. However, when I shared this answer with someone important to me, they doubted that I hear God, again. It happened in the past too. And I won’t lie, it hurt a lot because despite God telling me everything is going to be okay, they said it won’t happen. As if I had just imagined it over and over again. And despite pressing into my Lord, that He would not answer me. Well my friends, He has. And I had hoped that their reaction would be a little more encouraging or at least not a knock. Instead I get left with even more pain. I know what I heard. Again, and again. They said it would take a loud booming voice of God to convince them of it. And yet, how does God usually talk to people? Many places in the Bible, it is in a still, small voice. I was reminded of that at last weekend’s services.

It was the story of how Elijah went up a mountain, asking God for some big sign, and God gave him a show all right – a storm, a fire, and an earthquake, but he could discern that God was not in those things. Finally, at the end of it all, he heard God’s still, small voice. It was at the end of all the hoopla, not during it. And then God asked him what he was doing there when all he really was should have done was go back to what God called him to do originally. No big signs and wonders, no miracles, just being obedient to the call of God. And that is what I hope to do.

Despite any uncomfortableness, uncertainty, naysayers, hurt, sadness, doubts & fears, I hope and plan to keep doing what God has called me to which is to just keep following Him. Not to make my own plans and wander far from Him. Not to ignore his still, small voice, and not to just guess what He wants, but to keep seeking His Will and Wisdom in everyday life. To keep leaning into Him, and not giving up despite how easy that would be. And you know what? This has possibly been the most trying time of my life, but also the closest I’ve ever been to my Lord & Saviour, because He is Faithful. He makes promises that He keeps – as it says in the Bible, He is not man that He should lie, and right now that is the most comforting thought as I really don’t know the future and I don’t know what kind of other uncomfortable things will occur in the next year or more, but I know that He will be right there beside me and He will provide all that I need, and bring life to this hurting soul. I am so thankful for every moment I can spend with Him talking, worshiping, and enjoying His presence and for all the wonderful people He is sending into my life again. I need this so much, and He knows it. I am reminded that regardless of how the world treats me, I am special in His Eyes, a jewel, precious to Him and worth more than gold.

I am reminded that regardless of how the world treats me, I am special in His Eyes, a jewel, precious to Him and worth more than gold.

And I have a place being prepared for me in Heaven whenever He calls me home, which is so exciting as I long to be immersed in His Perfect Love completely. I had a dream about it a year or two ago, and it was amazing, but alas it is not my time yet. He still has plans for me, I just need to be patient and allow His Grace to be enough for me – easier said than done when reality hits. But Lord Jesus is so awesome!!

Btw, if you were touched by these words or wish to share a personal testimony of how God is working in your life right now, feel free to comment below or share this post. Thank you so much!

God Bless you!

*~Roxy~*

Seeking Wisdom

Hi Readers,

Long time no see, but I assure you, I’ve been here the whole time, just not writing online. Actually, truth be told, I’ve been enjoying keeping a personal journal lately. There is a lot happening in my life and it has been very therapeutic for me. Through this process of healing from personal hurts/asking God for wisdom to deal with different things, He has been so faithful to provide me with fresh bread each day. I’ve been a follower of Christ for years, but only now have I been really seeking His Wisdom on everything as I realize I cannot handle any of this by myself, and wow! I am so in awe of the grace He’s shown me over the years, making mistake after mistake, living in sin and basically living a lie unbeknownst to me, but still no excuse. I am repenting and seeking His Will and that has set me free in so many ways. Don’t get me wrong, I’m still in the ‘I can’t believe this is happening to me,” phase, but at least now I know that God will carry me through and I WILL come out the other side. Just this morning I woke up thinking I must be dead because I didn’t feel the same hurt that has been haunting me the past couple months, so weird. It was a direct answer to prayer that’s for sure, and God is so good, He does everything just at the right moment, when you need it most. So what I would like you to take from this is that no matter the hurdles you face in life, no matter the hurts or impossibilities, if you seek God on the matter(s) sincerely and own up to your responsibility, He will help you through it. The key is to be obedient with the right heart attitude, not too proud to take a good long look at yourself and see whatever you have been doing/thinking wrong, and to walk in His grace & peace. It’s not always easy to do, but once you get started He will help you along the way. This journal is full of golden nuggets to read and re-read already and it’s only been about a month or so of regular writing. I am so happy that I decided to choose wisdom and not my own understanding as I really had none. I know my Lord & Saviour is with me and that is like winning the lottery for me, it truly is. How about you? Where do you seek security & happiness? I am safe in the Lord, Amen.

Read in the Bible:
James 1:5 – “If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.”

P.S. – God is stirring up something inside, future career(s) maybe? We’ll see!

Till next blog post,
*~Roxy~*

Changes

Hi Folks,

How are things down at the hen house? (Or wherever you call home?) In my world, there has been a lot hanging on the air lately, and while it does worry me sometimes, I just have to keep giving it all to God. That’s how I’m surviving and have been surviving for a long time. But I’m tired of just surviving truth be told. I almost forget sometimes what it was like to have dreams and goals as those things seemed to have washed away forever. And while I know it’s possible to get them back, sometimes it’s like all I can see is fog and I just have to keep stepping forward not knowing where I’ll end up, but trusting it’s somewhere good. My reasoning is, well if I’m not going backwards it must be positive right? Well, there’s a time for moving forward, a time for sitting and thinking, and at times, a time to look into the past and try to heal from things that need healing from. Right now, I believe I’m in the phase of looking back, and no it’s not pretty or easy, but I know it’s something that must happen if I’m ever going to be able to move ahead in life, regardless of what life throws at me. It’s been a rough couple months or more, and I know that God is showing me that things must change, but now they’ve been stepped up a bit, I think partially because I refused to just do things of my own will. And at times, that’s how we must act – by being prodded along. It may seem dumb, but we can be like cattle can’t we? If all we see is the field in front of us and we’re content to keep eating the same grass there, but God knows there’s better stuff out there for us, bigger and better fields, ‘fields of dreams’ as they say, then sometimes He allows us to go through some harder times to get there. I know for me, unfortunately, a lot of my own issues stem from hurts not dealt with, so I need to take initiative and finally deal with those issues. It’s the only way I’ll ever truly be a complete human being. I don’t like who I am right now, not in the ‘nice person’ way, but in the people pleasing, mousy-me kind of way that always views myself in a way that is not pleasing to God/worthy of His calling. I am not worthy of anything, trust me, but moreso, I should be walking in a way that shows I appreciate the life God gave me and love myself in the healthy kind of way. It’s okay to love yourself, I think a lot of people, moms especially can view that as being ‘vain’. Well, sorry to burst your bubble, but really, if you don’t love yourself, how are you ever going to love anyone else the way you’re supposed to? We are not called to be slaves or to hate ourselves, and yet, so many times I feel that myself along with many other people out there are living mindlessly, carelessly, not living life to the fullest and that is what our enemy wants. It is sad and cannot go on. But I digress…

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Till next post, God Bless!
I’m cheering you on to victory!

*~Roxy~*

God’s Encouragement

Hello SharingMomLife Reader(s),

I say reader(s) as I really don’t know how many people actually read my blog, but even if only One does, I’m fine with that. He is the only one that I need to know is reading, if there is more, then great! It’s a good day. I got to clean out my fridge yesterday, and finally pulled it out with hubby’s help after about 7 years… there were tons of dust balls and other things there that shall remain nameless for this blog post, but let’s just say, I’m soooo happy that it’s done! And yes, I clean my fridge more often, but haven’t had the energy to clean behind it yet so this is BIG. So thankful my whole family got into it, helping with vacuuming, emptying/filling the fridge and going through everything, and all that hard work. It sure made it less daunting than had it been only me. ;p So yeah, *victory dance*!!!

Also, yesterday I got to pick up a dresser that my boss at work told me about someone was giving away. I thought, “Sure, why not? I could use one.” So hubby went and picked it up, and boy was it a nice one – just like new and a nice design/colour too! *Big win!* So I had some shelf liner lying around and decided to ‘make it mine’ by lining the inside with flower/leaf-designed liner. Turned out not bad seeing as how I haven’t done this many times in my life lol! I immediately went to work loading it up with some personal items and offered the other half of it to my hubby who is probably less enthusiastic about filling it, but hey, that’s okay too. I know, I’m easy to please. It’s a big deal to me! ^_^ So I say, I am blessed.

Today in ‘Winterpeg’, it’s a bright sunny day and I’m happy for the sunshine and that I got to go to church despite a late night issue and lack of sleep. I am still blessed. I asked God to speak to us this morning, and He did – at least I know He spoke to me, and probably everyone else in the church as He does, and it was no small matter. The topic was where is God when major tragedy and bad stuff happens? The pastor said two things – one was that he doesn’t know. In that, who are we to try to even understand God’s reasoning for everything when we are like a ladybug (yay for that term!) in comparison to Him in terms of size, years of living, wisdom, knowledge, etc. That was a really good perspective to put it into, and spoke to me especially as I’m going through major things right now that I can’t even begin to describe here, and will not go into further online. Just know that they are HUGE. And secondly, the pastor asked, “How do we know that God loves us?” Well, it says so right in His Word, John 3:16, which most people know by heart, whether secular or not. It’s, “For God so loved the world that He gave His One and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.” NIV. I think many people might just brush that off, but not me because I realize the power of faith and trust that God does and is working in our lives, even when we don’t see it right away. He has blessed me beyond measure since I’ve known Him, despite all the trauma and tragedy, and constant battles of everyday, He is my constant and I’m so thankful that even though I screw up on a daily basis in many ways, He has promised me eternal life with Him in Heaven and pulls me through everything I battle. I don’t need to pay the ultimate price for my sins, because of what He’s done on the cross. It’s that simple, yet so profound! Can you imagine sacrificing your only child to redeem the lives of everyone? I can’t, and I won’t even try. But He Loves us that much! Amen.

Just enjoying God’s Encouragement and Grace and Love. He is with us.

Till next blog post,

*~Roxy~*

Be Yourself – Do it!

Hello Fellow Moms/Crafty People,

There’s been something stewing in my head for a few days so I thought I’d get it out on fake paper (AKA – my blog), to let it out/perhaps inspire myself to do something about it. I’ve been thinking of how I used to doodle all the time as a kid and teenager, then one day, I went to work and while I still dabbled in drawing while I was on the phone or something, I just never really got back into my art. It wasn’t for lack of interest, I kind of just stopped doing things for my own enjoyment and started doing everything out of necessity. It wasn’t that hard to do given the lifestyle I was used to living (which wasn’t real living imo), which was go to college, do homework, go to work on the weekends, come home and do more homework then back to it the next day, then after college, having not achieved much with that avenue, going to a dead-end job every day just for a paycheck and to try to make everyone else like me. Why would I do that you ask? Well, let’s just say, I grew up always wanting to please everyone since I felt so rejected by many people/misunderstood that at one point I stopped trying to be myself and started trying to be the ‘perfect’ person for everyone else which kind of left me empty inside. Sure, I still had some things I liked and did, but I never kept on being myself for fear of offending someone, getting yelled at, ignored, or rejected in some other way. I didn’t get a lot of praise in the right ways growing up, at least not in the ways that mattered to me, so I’ve always tried to be somebody else, someone better – that elusive person whom I could never be because it was never good enough and no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t get away from being at least a little bit myself.

After I got married, I started a new life with the kind of moral support I so desired, and got someone else’s objective thoughts on things. Then I started to realize that what I was doing was unhealthy so I started to think about the whole people pleasing thing. After learning more about how God created us to be uniquely ourselves for His glory, it got me thinking about how wrong it was that I just wanted to be whatever everyone else wanted me to be and how I should change that. Well, let’s just say, after you’ve been acting and thinking a certain way for most of your life, it takes a LOT of time and effort to start doing differently, but I know it’s best so at least now I haven’t resigned to just going through the motions, but at least to make an effort to push past any thoughts of rejection or people pleasing and just be myself one step at a time. It sounds childish, and in many ways I see myself like a child still learning who I am, but I am still figuring out how to just be me and just do the crafty/creative/silly things that I enjoy doing for fun. Yes, adults and parents can still do those things, you just need to make a decision not to give up on yourself. If you want to be a robot, go ahead, but if you want to be yourself and enjoy life as it was meant to be enjoyed, go ahead and be yourself the best way you know how. It doesn’t mean doing things that are immoral if that’s what you want to do, but just dressing how you want, talking about your favourite subjects without fear of rejection, drawing/creating as you want and not worrying about it being ‘perfect’ for everyone else – so long as you like it that’s what matters after all, and just being YOU. It sounds simple, but it isn’t always especially when you’ve been traumatized in childhood. But it is possible with God’s help and the love of friends & family/community. You can do it! Yes. You. Can!

Go ahead, be yourself. I dare you!

Until next post,

*~Roxy~*

Moving Offline

It is a sad day when there is no longer freedom of speech even amongst family. Apparently we all need to walk on eggshells this day and age lest we say something to offend those in power and end up in jail or worse… but yet we can’t live in fear, that is not what God has called us to. So there is a constant battle raging on in both the physical and spiritual realms until they ultimately merge (soon enough), and all will see what is really happening in the background. Meh! Just so done with being bullied online and offline, it’s time to just step back and take time out. Time to just focus on God and let our relationship take priority; no longer focusing on what everyone else is doing. I know a number of people who have gone offline and just gone back to old school living – just living life, and not letting media and the distractions of internet control their lives. And it’s good. I admit I love looking at Pinterest and posting to Instagram, plus online gaming, but enough is enough. I need to take back my life, whatever health has been stolen by countless wasted hours in front of a screen. I need to pray and take action for my sake as well as my family’s sake. Thank you, Jesus that You are in Control, and for healing us, leading us as Your sheep, bringing us closer to You every day! Amen.

P.S. – I may still do some blogging to keep my creativity up, but that’s about it, other than emails. Thanks!

Till Next Post,

*~Roxy~*

He Holds me in His Hands

Hello Dear Readers,

It’s been a while since I’ve posted, so thought I’d share some of what is going on with me right now. You know, some me stuff & faith stuff. I guess, firstly, as I’ve been trying ever harder to just embrace being myself, I’ve been enjoying having a goal to do at least one creative thing a day or every second day. And with having kids, that part’s not too hard to do. Like recently, the kids decided they both like the idea of having a Mario themed room, so we’re slowly working on their theme every day. So far, we’ve collected some Mario/Luigi keychains, pull pack racers, stickers, made some wooden Mario blocks, a wooden Yoshi egg, & piranha plants among other things. I just finished sketching a Mario picture for one of the kids and just need to color it, still deciding what medium I’m going to use, but I am thinking a mix of paint and color pencil? Yup, fun, fun fun! But of course, it can’t all be fun… right?

I don’t know about you, but I don’t have cable or a newspaper so the way I get most of my news now is online via email newsletters or social media, and the news that I’ve been getting has been weighing on me pretty hard. I know I’m a sensitive person, as my Mom always said, but this has been so saddening for me hearing about all the evil spreading worldwide – if it’s possible – even moreso than before. I am hurt to hear about all the people being chased away, tortured & killed for their faith in Christ, though they will be rewarded for not giving in to the enemy, they are still suffering so much and it’s all I can do to stop crying. I am praying almost non-stop at times, just praying for their help and rescue. And as I get to know the character of God more each day, I know this can’t be easy for Him to watch, yet it is allowed for now. There seems to be no end to the violence, hatred, persecution, disaster, disease epidemics, genetic modification of food, chemical infiltration, the list goes on… But I am comforted knowing that my God is here with us, and with everyone who calls on the Lord, Jesus in sincerity. He is here as He always was, and His Spirit leads us to a place of peace in all situations, however long it may take, we can rest assured that His Love for us never fails and that we have something better to look forward to in the future. For those times when I’ve felt the sting remembering our loss of a child, or previous hard times in my relationships, job loss, health issues, near-death experiences, it all boils down to one thing: trust in God. He is Holding me right now in His Hands, and not just Holding as one holds a child, but really Holding me up. His Support and Provision these past 3 or 4 months has been ever increasing, and I think it’s because I’ve been asking Him to help us be ready for His Return (which is imminent btw). How else can I be ready unless I get to know the REAL Jesus? The character of God is amazing beyond words, it is difficult for me to imagine why anyone would ever want to NOT have Him in their lives, but I think it’s because in reality, those who have not tasted what the true God’s Love is like, by being in relationship with Him, would not realize what they’re missing out on hence why I pray for those around me every day that they too would finally turn to Him. And you know what? He has been working in those around me, even though it may not be obvious, I know He is! It’s all the little things that I notice about others, or about even His Love in my own life – He is a God of details after all! Yes, every detail, every hair on our heads are numbered – He cares that much!! I am so in awe of all the ways He’s been showing me He cares! Lately, I guess as I grow closer to Him, I’ve been taking notice even more, but everything He does is amazing really. Lots of free stuff given to me that I’ve always wanted but could not afford to get, little blessings and big ones, new friends, improvements in my relationships, unexpected money, healing & help… the list goes on! :) Thank you, Jesus! You Deserve ALL the Praise, Honor & Glory!!

So in the midst of my daily struggle with the world getting ever darker, I am comforted that my Savior is with me and those around me, that He Cares and His Great Mercy abounds in everyday life, we just need to stop and take notice! Too much Facebook has been causing me much time slippage, but I’m determined not to fall back into that pit, so with His Help I am going to try harder not to get sucked into the vortex of ‘social media’ as it has been dubbed. I need some time to just sit in His Presence and listen to the One Who Made me and Loves me.

God Bless!

*~Roxy~*

 

Healing…

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I don’t know if anyone reads my blog or not, but tonight I am crying inside again. Don’t know why per say, but maybe just want to write something down to help me feel better. Just need to breathe somehow…

Ever have a problem with the way you see yourself? Ever feel like a piece of junk, like you’re the biggest wreck in the world? Yup, that’s me right now. I know spiritually it’s wrong to think that, as I know that God Loves me, and I have far more worth to Him than I could ever imagine, and yet… I am still like a child who’s been hurting all her life. I am a new creation in Christ, but I am still in need of healing. I can’t go into too much detail online, but basically I need prayer. Prayer for healing of my emotions, self-esteem, and any effects of different life trauma to be released from my being. It wrecks a person so bad.

Most of my life I’ve struggled with being myself – why? (And yes, I have written about this before). Because I was always compared to others in a bad way – You’re slow as a turtle, Are you purple?, The immigrants can get a job why can’t you?, You’re just like your Dad, You’re just like your Mom (my parents separated when I was 11), and to top it all off, my sibling always got what they wanted, and I got nothing I wanted. My art got criticized a lot as a kid which hurt even more since that was something I cared about deeply, both by family and by friends. And growing up I was either too fat, too skinny, too flat, too short, too ditzy, too smart, too much of a loner, too shy, too slow, dressed too well, dressed too down, too — you name it – I seemed to be too much everything bad. It was a terrible way for a kid to grow up – at least emotionally. Physically I had food, clothing, shelter, education, medicine, health, so, “Boo hoo!” I know. North American mentality – there’s people out there struggling to stay alive. I really don’t have a reason to complain, just always felt like I’m not good enough for anyone, and sometimes, the day to day stuff is easier to handle than the emotional stuff that just messes people up. And it probably doesn’t help being female because we are hormone driven… ugh! It’s not fun let’s put it that way…

So yeah, I’ve been asking for prayer over the past month or so for healing emotionally, and God is doing a good work in me, but I must keep pressing forward no matter how icky I feel sometimes. I must push away all bad thoughts about other people, insecurities, doubts, fears, wrestle with my inner being, tell myself that I am a new creation in Christ and believe it because God’s Word is truth, and I know He never steers me wrong. I start feeling bad with certain triggers, and I mostly know why now – poor self-esteem. And I’m working on improving that, so no worries, but I will get there eventually. It’s a love – hate relationship, just can’t seem to completely get out of this stuff, thankfully I know that even though I can’t, God can, and will. He will pull my hand and lift me out so long as I let Him. That’s the thing with God, He doesn’t force you to listen, He may give you a push in a certain direction but ultimately it’s your choice to listen or not. So I pray that I will keep listening to Him. Can I get an Amen?! Amen.

Until Next Post,

*~Roxy~*

True Love

As I was reading today’s Our Daily Bread verse, (Revelation 22:1-5), it reminded me of a dream God gave me recently and I want to share it with you. It was all about preparing to go to Heaven and symbolic of the trip to Heaven.

It started out with me going into a building, and seeing one of our close Christian friends sitting in a room in front of a portal of swirling fire. It was freaky with many demons sticking their heads out (and maybe claws too, I can’t remember). They wanted to eat or kill me and they had super long sharp teeth – yikes! Our friend told me to walk through and I would be okay. I looked at the fire again and was creeped out. I knew those things were from Hell.

Next thing I did was walk outside around the back of the building and found a door which I knew led to the room with fire so I was a bit hesitant to open it, but by faith I opened it and when I did I was relieved to see it empty except for an old man standing beside a table. I knew that because I had accepted Jesus as my Savior I didn’t have to worry about Hell since He had overcome it for me. Such symbolism!

I was with other people now including my husband. Next, the man was giving each person two certificates – I think with two different colors. He gave me mine and I walked outside, but when I checked my pocket I only found one so I anxiously went back to the man to tell him, but then I found the other paper so I was super relieved. I knew that these symbolized my ticket to Heaven.

Then it was time to go to Heaven, so we walked outside to what looked like the seats of a roller coaster and got in. My hubby was sitting beside me and my hubby’s sister was in the seat in front of us. We had to buckle up. Now as an aside – I don’t like roller coasters in real life, I find them scary, so in my dream it took lots of trust for me to sit in that seat, but I knew God would keep me safe so i did so anyways.

Next it was time to go up into Heaven – praise God!! So the man, (or angel?) In charge of the ride got in and we started to rise off the ground and were going straight up into space! I was screaming from the thrill, “Woohoo!” – and joy of finally going to be with Jesus. My soul was so happy!

Suddenly, we burst through the Earth’s atmosphere and I could see a million beautiful stars twinkling and I was so thrilled to be there. This travel took what seemed like only a couple seconds. And next thing I knew, we were pulling into Heaven.

My dream ended just after this, but as we were entering Heaven I saw a room set up like a store with tons of toys on the shelves that an angel was in charge of and I felt joy knowing that was for all the kids to enjoy there – I was happy for my kids too! God loves children so much!

Before my dream ended, I remember thinking with excitement, “I’m finally here!!” I was finally home! What a comforting feeling – so amazing!! ^_^ Suddenly God’s all encompassing Love surrounded me and filled me like a huge hug!! And I felt love like no other I EVER felt before – it was like a combination of romantic love, friendship love, sacrificial love, fatherly love and more!! WOW. I am so blessed that God showed me a preview of His full presence! I think its because I had been asking to feel His Love for a long time, and now I know what its like as a whole! I share this story with every Christian I know because its a reminder of why we look forward to Heaven. I think sometimes people get so caught up in religion and day to day life that they forget why Heaven is exciting. And for a Christian that is a sad state to be in – we should all be excited to tell others the reason for our joy in Salvation – Jesus Loves us – God Loves us!! What more do we need?!

Blessings,

Roxy