God’s Encouragement

Hello SharingMomLife Reader(s),

I say reader(s) as I really don’t know how many people actually read my blog, but even if only One does, I’m fine with that. He is the only one that I need to know is reading, if there is more, then great! It’s a good day. I got to clean out my fridge yesterday, and finally pulled it out with hubby’s help after about 7 years… there were tons of dust balls and other things there that shall remain nameless for this blog post, but let’s just say, I’m soooo happy that it’s done! And yes, I clean my fridge more often, but haven’t had the energy to clean behind it yet so this is BIG. So thankful my whole family got into it, helping with vacuuming, emptying/filling the fridge and going through everything, and all that hard work. It sure made it less daunting than had it been only me. ;p So yeah, *victory dance*!!!

Also, yesterday I got to pick up a dresser that my boss at work told me about someone was giving away. I thought, “Sure, why not? I could use one.” So hubby went and picked it up, and boy was it a nice one – just like new and a nice design/colour too! *Big win!* So I had some shelf liner lying around and decided to ‘make it mine’ by lining the inside with flower/leaf-designed liner. Turned out not bad seeing as how I haven’t done this many times in my life lol! I immediately went to work loading it up with some personal items and offered the other half of it to my hubby who is probably less enthusiastic about filling it, but hey, that’s okay too. I know, I’m easy to please. It’s a big deal to me! ^_^ So I say, I am blessed.

Today in ‘Winterpeg’, it’s a bright sunny day and I’m happy for the sunshine and that I got to go to church despite a late night issue and lack of sleep. I am still blessed. I asked God to speak to us this morning, and He did – at least I know He spoke to me, and probably everyone else in the church as He does, and it was no small matter. The topic was where is God when major tragedy and bad stuff happens? The pastor said two things – one was that he doesn’t know. In that, who are we to try to even understand God’s reasoning for everything when we are like a ladybug (yay for that term!) in comparison to Him in terms of size, years of living, wisdom, knowledge, etc. That was a really good perspective to put it into, and spoke to me especially as I’m going through major things right now that I can’t even begin to describe here, and will not go into further online. Just know that they are HUGE. And secondly, the pastor asked, “How do we know that God loves us?” Well, it says so right in His Word, John 3:16, which most people know by heart, whether secular or not. It’s, “For God so loved the world that He gave His One and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.” NIV. I think many people might just brush that off, but not me because I realize the power of faith and trust that God does and is working in our lives, even when we don’t see it right away. He has blessed me beyond measure since I’ve known Him, despite all the trauma and tragedy, and constant battles of everyday, He is my constant and I’m so thankful that even though I screw up on a daily basis in many ways, He has promised me eternal life with Him in Heaven and pulls me through everything I battle. I don’t need to pay the ultimate price for my sins, because of what He’s done on the cross. It’s that simple, yet so profound! Can you imagine sacrificing your only child to redeem the lives of everyone? I can’t, and I won’t even try. But He Loves us that much! Amen.

Just enjoying God’s Encouragement and Grace and Love. He is with us.

Till next blog post,

*~Roxy~*

Be Yourself – Do it!

Hello Fellow Moms/Crafty People,

There’s been something stewing in my head for a few days so I thought I’d get it out on fake paper (AKA – my blog), to let it out/perhaps inspire myself to do something about it. I’ve been thinking of how I used to doodle all the time as a kid and teenager, then one day, I went to work and while I still dabbled in drawing while I was on the phone or something, I just never really got back into my art. It wasn’t for lack of interest, I kind of just stopped doing things for my own enjoyment and started doing everything out of necessity. It wasn’t that hard to do given the lifestyle I was used to living (which wasn’t real living imo), which was go to college, do homework, go to work on the weekends, come home and do more homework then back to it the next day, then after college, having not achieved much with that avenue, going to a dead-end job every day just for a paycheck and to try to make everyone else like me. Why would I do that you ask? Well, let’s just say, I grew up always wanting to please everyone since I felt so rejected by many people/misunderstood that at one point I stopped trying to be myself and started trying to be the ‘perfect’ person for everyone else which kind of left me empty inside. Sure, I still had some things I liked and did, but I never kept on being myself for fear of offending someone, getting yelled at, ignored, or rejected in some other way. I didn’t get a lot of praise in the right ways growing up, at least not in the ways that mattered to me, so I’ve always tried to be somebody else, someone better – that elusive person whom I could never be because it was never good enough and no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t get away from being at least a little bit myself.

After I got married, I started a new life with the kind of moral support I so desired, and got someone else’s objective thoughts on things. Then I started to realize that what I was doing was unhealthy so I started to think about the whole people pleasing thing. After learning more about how God created us to be uniquely ourselves for His glory, it got me thinking about how wrong it was that I just wanted to be whatever everyone else wanted me to be and how I should change that. Well, let’s just say, after you’ve been acting and thinking a certain way for most of your life, it takes a LOT of time and effort to start doing differently, but I know it’s best so at least now I haven’t resigned to just going through the motions, but at least to make an effort to push past any thoughts of rejection or people pleasing and just be myself one step at a time. It sounds childish, and in many ways I see myself like a child still learning who I am, but I am still figuring out how to just be me and just do the crafty/creative/silly things that I enjoy doing for fun. Yes, adults and parents can still do those things, you just need to make a decision not to give up on yourself. If you want to be a robot, go ahead, but if you want to be yourself and enjoy life as it was meant to be enjoyed, go ahead and be yourself the best way you know how. It doesn’t mean doing things that are immoral if that’s what you want to do, but just dressing how you want, talking about your favourite subjects without fear of rejection, drawing/creating as you want and not worrying about it being ‘perfect’ for everyone else – so long as you like it that’s what matters after all, and just being YOU. It sounds simple, but it isn’t always especially when you’ve been traumatized in childhood. But it is possible with God’s help and the love of friends & family/community. You can do it! Yes. You. Can!

Go ahead, be yourself. I dare you!

Until next post,

*~Roxy~*