Seeking Wisdom

Hi Readers,

Long time no see, but I assure you, I’ve been here the whole time, just not writing online. Actually, truth be told, I’ve been enjoying keeping a personal journal lately. There is a lot happening in my life and it has been very therapeutic for me. Through this process of healing from personal hurts/asking God for wisdom to deal with different things, He has been so faithful to provide me with fresh bread each day. I’ve been a follower of Christ for years, but only now have I been really seeking His Wisdom on everything as I realize I cannot handle any of this by myself, and wow! I am so in awe of the grace He’s shown me over the years, making mistake after mistake, living in sin and basically living a lie unbeknownst to me, but still no excuse. I am repenting and seeking His Will and that has set me free in so many ways. Don’t get me wrong, I’m still in the ‘I can’t believe this is happening to me,” phase, but at least now I know that God will carry me through and I WILL come out the other side. Just this morning I woke up thinking I must be dead because I didn’t feel the same hurt that has been haunting me the past couple months, so weird. It was a direct answer to prayer that’s for sure, and God is so good, He does everything just at the right moment, when you need it most. So what I would like you to take from this is that no matter the hurdles you face in life, no matter the hurts or impossibilities, if you seek God on the matter(s) sincerely and own up to your responsibility, He will help you through it. The key is to be obedient with the right heart attitude, not too proud to take a good long look at yourself and see whatever you have been doing/thinking wrong, and to walk in His grace & peace. It’s not always easy to do, but once you get started He will help you along the way. This journal is full of golden nuggets to read and re-read already and it’s only been about a month or so of regular writing. I am so happy that I decided to choose wisdom and not my own understanding as I really had none. I know my Lord & Saviour is with me and that is like winning the lottery for me, it truly is. How about you? Where do you seek security & happiness? I am safe in the Lord, Amen.

Read in the Bible:
James 1:5 – “If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.”

P.S. – God is stirring up something inside, future career(s) maybe? We’ll see!

Till next blog post,
*~Roxy~*

Changes

Hi Folks,

How are things down at the hen house? (Or wherever you call home?) In my world, there has been a lot hanging on the air lately, and while it does worry me sometimes, I just have to keep giving it all to God. That’s how I’m surviving and have been surviving for a long time. But I’m tired of just surviving truth be told. I almost forget sometimes what it was like to have dreams and goals as those things seemed to have washed away forever. And while I know it’s possible to get them back, sometimes it’s like all I can see is fog and I just have to keep stepping forward not knowing where I’ll end up, but trusting it’s somewhere good. My reasoning is, well if I’m not going backwards it must be positive right? Well, there’s a time for moving forward, a time for sitting and thinking, and at times, a time to look into the past and try to heal from things that need healing from. Right now, I believe I’m in the phase of looking back, and no it’s not pretty or easy, but I know it’s something that must happen if I’m ever going to be able to move ahead in life, regardless of what life throws at me. It’s been a rough couple months or more, and I know that God is showing me that things must change, but now they’ve been stepped up a bit, I think partially because I refused to just do things of my own will. And at times, that’s how we must act – by being prodded along. It may seem dumb, but we can be like cattle can’t we? If all we see is the field in front of us and we’re content to keep eating the same grass there, but God knows there’s better stuff out there for us, bigger and better fields, ‘fields of dreams’ as they say, then sometimes He allows us to go through some harder times to get there. I know for me, unfortunately, a lot of my own issues stem from hurts not dealt with, so I need to take initiative and finally deal with those issues. It’s the only way I’ll ever truly be a complete human being. I don’t like who I am right now, not in the ‘nice person’ way, but in the people pleasing, mousy-me kind of way that always views myself in a way that is not pleasing to God/worthy of His calling. I am not worthy of anything, trust me, but moreso, I should be walking in a way that shows I appreciate the life God gave me and love myself in the healthy kind of way. It’s okay to love yourself, I think a lot of people, moms especially can view that as being ‘vain’. Well, sorry to burst your bubble, but really, if you don’t love yourself, how are you ever going to love anyone else the way you’re supposed to? We are not called to be slaves or to hate ourselves, and yet, so many times I feel that myself along with many other people out there are living mindlessly, carelessly, not living life to the fullest and that is what our enemy wants. It is sad and cannot go on. But I digress…

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Till next post, God Bless!
I’m cheering you on to victory!

*~Roxy~*

God’s Encouragement

Hello SharingMomLife Reader(s),

I say reader(s) as I really don’t know how many people actually read my blog, but even if only One does, I’m fine with that. He is the only one that I need to know is reading, if there is more, then great! It’s a good day. I got to clean out my fridge yesterday, and finally pulled it out with hubby’s help after about 7 years… there were tons of dust balls and other things there that shall remain nameless for this blog post, but let’s just say, I’m soooo happy that it’s done! And yes, I clean my fridge more often, but haven’t had the energy to clean behind it yet so this is BIG. So thankful my whole family got into it, helping with vacuuming, emptying/filling the fridge and going through everything, and all that hard work. It sure made it less daunting than had it been only me. ;p So yeah, *victory dance*!!!

Also, yesterday I got to pick up a dresser that my boss at work told me about someone was giving away. I thought, “Sure, why not? I could use one.” So hubby went and picked it up, and boy was it a nice one – just like new and a nice design/colour too! *Big win!* So I had some shelf liner lying around and decided to ‘make it mine’ by lining the inside with flower/leaf-designed liner. Turned out not bad seeing as how I haven’t done this many times in my life lol! I immediately went to work loading it up with some personal items and offered the other half of it to my hubby who is probably less enthusiastic about filling it, but hey, that’s okay too. I know, I’m easy to please. It’s a big deal to me! ^_^ So I say, I am blessed.

Today in ‘Winterpeg’, it’s a bright sunny day and I’m happy for the sunshine and that I got to go to church despite a late night issue and lack of sleep. I am still blessed. I asked God to speak to us this morning, and He did – at least I know He spoke to me, and probably everyone else in the church as He does, and it was no small matter. The topic was where is God when major tragedy and bad stuff happens? The pastor said two things – one was that he doesn’t know. In that, who are we to try to even understand God’s reasoning for everything when we are like a ladybug (yay for that term!) in comparison to Him in terms of size, years of living, wisdom, knowledge, etc. That was a really good perspective to put it into, and spoke to me especially as I’m going through major things right now that I can’t even begin to describe here, and will not go into further online. Just know that they are HUGE. And secondly, the pastor asked, “How do we know that God loves us?” Well, it says so right in His Word, John 3:16, which most people know by heart, whether secular or not. It’s, “For God so loved the world that He gave His One and only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.” NIV. I think many people might just brush that off, but not me because I realize the power of faith and trust that God does and is working in our lives, even when we don’t see it right away. He has blessed me beyond measure since I’ve known Him, despite all the trauma and tragedy, and constant battles of everyday, He is my constant and I’m so thankful that even though I screw up on a daily basis in many ways, He has promised me eternal life with Him in Heaven and pulls me through everything I battle. I don’t need to pay the ultimate price for my sins, because of what He’s done on the cross. It’s that simple, yet so profound! Can you imagine sacrificing your only child to redeem the lives of everyone? I can’t, and I won’t even try. But He Loves us that much! Amen.

Just enjoying God’s Encouragement and Grace and Love. He is with us.

Till next blog post,

*~Roxy~*

Be Yourself – Do it!

Hello Fellow Moms/Crafty People,

There’s been something stewing in my head for a few days so I thought I’d get it out on fake paper (AKA – my blog), to let it out/perhaps inspire myself to do something about it. I’ve been thinking of how I used to doodle all the time as a kid and teenager, then one day, I went to work and while I still dabbled in drawing while I was on the phone or something, I just never really got back into my art. It wasn’t for lack of interest, I kind of just stopped doing things for my own enjoyment and started doing everything out of necessity. It wasn’t that hard to do given the lifestyle I was used to living (which wasn’t real living imo), which was go to college, do homework, go to work on the weekends, come home and do more homework then back to it the next day, then after college, having not achieved much with that avenue, going to a dead-end job every day just for a paycheck and to try to make everyone else like me. Why would I do that you ask? Well, let’s just say, I grew up always wanting to please everyone since I felt so rejected by many people/misunderstood that at one point I stopped trying to be myself and started trying to be the ‘perfect’ person for everyone else which kind of left me empty inside. Sure, I still had some things I liked and did, but I never kept on being myself for fear of offending someone, getting yelled at, ignored, or rejected in some other way. I didn’t get a lot of praise in the right ways growing up, at least not in the ways that mattered to me, so I’ve always tried to be somebody else, someone better – that elusive person whom I could never be because it was never good enough and no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t get away from being at least a little bit myself.

After I got married, I started a new life with the kind of moral support I so desired, and got someone else’s objective thoughts on things. Then I started to realize that what I was doing was unhealthy so I started to think about the whole people pleasing thing. After learning more about how God created us to be uniquely ourselves for His glory, it got me thinking about how wrong it was that I just wanted to be whatever everyone else wanted me to be and how I should change that. Well, let’s just say, after you’ve been acting and thinking a certain way for most of your life, it takes a LOT of time and effort to start doing differently, but I know it’s best so at least now I haven’t resigned to just going through the motions, but at least to make an effort to push past any thoughts of rejection or people pleasing and just be myself one step at a time. It sounds childish, and in many ways I see myself like a child still learning who I am, but I am still figuring out how to just be me and just do the crafty/creative/silly things that I enjoy doing for fun. Yes, adults and parents can still do those things, you just need to make a decision not to give up on yourself. If you want to be a robot, go ahead, but if you want to be yourself and enjoy life as it was meant to be enjoyed, go ahead and be yourself the best way you know how. It doesn’t mean doing things that are immoral if that’s what you want to do, but just dressing how you want, talking about your favourite subjects without fear of rejection, drawing/creating as you want and not worrying about it being ‘perfect’ for everyone else – so long as you like it that’s what matters after all, and just being YOU. It sounds simple, but it isn’t always especially when you’ve been traumatized in childhood. But it is possible with God’s help and the love of friends & family/community. You can do it! Yes. You. Can!

Go ahead, be yourself. I dare you!

Until next post,

*~Roxy~*

Cosplay is a dream come true!

My Jem cosplay 2015 - homemade costume :)

My Jem cosplay 2015 – a homemade costume :)

If you’ve ever dreamt about being one of your favourite cartoon characters or superheroes, well let me tell you that cosplay is where it’s at! I’m not kidding, it’s so much fun – or should I say SEW much fun lol! I basically knew that I wanted to do a cosplay of Jem a long time before the comic convention in Winnipeg, and so whenever I went out I was always keeping an eye out for cosplay pieces. I found the pink shoes first so I picked them up on the spot – where else but at a thrift store! They are super comfy flats so I can’t go wrong with that. Something to keep in mind with any cosplay outfit is comfort as many times when you put something on you want to be able to wear it around for quite a while without getting sore or sweaty. Anywho, that started the ball rolling.

Then, I was on Amazon one day and I found out that someone was selling light up Jem earrings so I decided to get those in order to add to my look. You can’t be Jem without her special Synergy earrings after all. So I put in a pre-order for them, and had to wait a long time to get them as they were a popular item shipping from overseas. And basically they worked, my only complaint was that they were red and not pink. I may paint them one of these days.

Next thing I thought was, “I need a wig!” So I waited until Halloween season rolled around and finally they came out with some rock star wigs. I found the perfect one at Value Village so I snatched that one right up! Of course, no wig is perfect right out of the bag, so I had to spend an evening giving it a trim until it was just right. Now I’m no hair dresser, so I did the best I could within the time frame that I had. If I really wanted to make it perfect I would take it to a real hair dresser, but of course being on a tight budget, I decided this was good enough for now. Some people spend quite a bit on their cosplay and that’s fine if you can afford it, but DIY works for me so to each their own. :)

Last, but not least, I had to figure out the costume… um, yeah. The tough part. I knew that I didn’t want to go with the classic pink outfit that every store/cosplayer uses, so I searched through some Jem screenshots of different outfits and this purple top was one that I particularly liked. I think it’s unique and knew that I could probably sew it up pretty fast, which I did! I took one morning sewing it up without a pattern – basically just used one of my tops as a pattern for the top, minus one shoulder, then I made the skirt by wrapping some white fabric around my body, pinning it and sewing as I went. I had to sew it up in parts and trim but since it was jersey material I didn’t worry about hemming and I think it turned out fine. (I really like jersey for certain projects!) I kind of went with what flattered my figure for the skirt too since I gained a bit of weight the past couple years. And I think that’s what great about cosplay is that no matter your body type, you can make it what you want and need! I love being able to sew my own clothes, (still need lots of practice, but enjoying the journey), and that once I’m done, I have something that I can wear any time that fits perfectly!

So I wore my outfit to the C4 Winnipeg Convention and got quite a few people who enjoyed my costume and actually knew who I was which is always a bonus. :p Some really appreciated the fact that I chose an outfit other than the standard one to cosplay. And while I was at the con, I managed to find someone selling buttons of the new Jem comic and someone was able to burn into wood a pic of Jem, so I was thrilled. It’s pretty hard to find homemade stuff for her nowadays.

Overall, I’m quite pleased with how her costume turned out and would love to do more in the future. Here’s to more sewing projects in the new year!

Happy New Year & Bless you & yours in 2016!

*~Roxy~*

Working Life

Is it the end of summer already? Don’t say that, there’s still one more month to go! Eh, it just feels that way as July is going by fast. Such is the life of a mom, especially with working outside the home again. I’m just trying to enjoy the kids while they are still in elementary, they grow every day and are looking (and smelling) more and more like teenagers lol! I keep telling my oldest to change his socks when he gets home from his day program as his feet stink up pretty fast. It’s just part of life I say. Get used to it.

I’m back at work – finally found a job after months of looking, and it feels good! I was so concerned because the job market is pretty rough right now, but I have God looking out for us so that helps! I kept praying and trusting He would provide and He did as always! I am so blessed that I found a part-time job that works with our family and is a good place to work. It also helps having very friendly and helpful coworkers – in just over a month, I’ve been able to learn most of my job pretty fast, and I keep getting compliments on my work too which is nice. I didn’t have much human interaction at my last job so I got pretty lonely and depressed there, so I’m happy to see people again. It’s funny that I didn’t think that would ever be a problem, but some workplaces are pretty solitary I guess… I put on a lot of weight working at my last job as I was the only one in the office and so I felt guilty every time I wanted to take a break and step outside as I knew people randomly dropped in, or they would call to tell me they were coming and I would wait for them. I guess I always worry about good customer service so much that I didn’t consider how much it was destroying me. I am glad to be done with that, at least I have someone to relieve me if I need to use the washroom or take a break now. Phew! Working life… how’s yours?

On another note, I’m looking forward to doing more crafts with my friend, whenever we make a date to do that.

Until Next Time

~Roxy

Moving Offline

It is a sad day when there is no longer freedom of speech even amongst family. Apparently we all need to walk on eggshells this day and age lest we say something to offend those in power and end up in jail or worse… but yet we can’t live in fear, that is not what God has called us to. So there is a constant battle raging on in both the physical and spiritual realms until they ultimately merge (soon enough), and all will see what is really happening in the background. Meh! Just so done with being bullied online and offline, it’s time to just step back and take time out. Time to just focus on God and let our relationship take priority; no longer focusing on what everyone else is doing. I know a number of people who have gone offline and just gone back to old school living – just living life, and not letting media and the distractions of internet control their lives. And it’s good. I admit I love looking at Pinterest and posting to Instagram, plus online gaming, but enough is enough. I need to take back my life, whatever health has been stolen by countless wasted hours in front of a screen. I need to pray and take action for my sake as well as my family’s sake. Thank you, Jesus that You are in Control, and for healing us, leading us as Your sheep, bringing us closer to You every day! Amen.

P.S. – I may still do some blogging to keep my creativity up, but that’s about it, other than emails. Thanks!

Till Next Post,

*~Roxy~*

DIY Scented Bath Salts

The other day I had my friend over for some crafts and dinner, and she brought over all her craft stuff. I love doing crafts, but hardly ever get to do any so when she comes by I’m always happy! She made several different gifts for someone, and along with that, I made some of my own scented bath salts. I had bought a few cute jars the week prior from Target since they were discounted, and knew that I would use them for something so this was the perfect opportunity! First, we decided what scents we wanted each to have, and then what color would go best for that scent. I picked peppermint and lavender. Then we colored each set of salts (Epsom salts to be exact) after pouring in the right amount of salts into a measuring cup. These are healthy for you to soak in, but we were making them for foot soaks. She had 8 different food colors (some neon), so we mixed some together to make the colors exactly how we wanted them. We then took a bamboo stick and mixed in 3-5 drops of an essential oil. So in one I mixed in peppermint oil *love!* with a bluish tinge, and in the other I put in the lavender essential oil, with a purple tinge. They turned out great, and after we got to put them into our glass jars, and decorate the lids. As you can see, I used hemp twine to decorate the peppermint lid, and purple ribbon to decorate the lavender one. Then I put a dot of hot glue on each bow to keep it set. Et Voila! I was so happy with the result, I decided to gift one to a close friend this week as she loves lavender! :) Yay! How special it is to gift a friend and spend time with friends, especially nowadays with children, when seeing friends is not an often occurence. I am blessed.

Till Next Time,

*~Roxy~*

He Holds me in His Hands

Hello Dear Readers,

It’s been a while since I’ve posted, so thought I’d share some of what is going on with me right now. You know, some me stuff & faith stuff. I guess, firstly, as I’ve been trying ever harder to just embrace being myself, I’ve been enjoying having a goal to do at least one creative thing a day or every second day. And with having kids, that part’s not too hard to do. Like recently, the kids decided they both like the idea of having a Mario themed room, so we’re slowly working on their theme every day. So far, we’ve collected some Mario/Luigi keychains, pull pack racers, stickers, made some wooden Mario blocks, a wooden Yoshi egg, & piranha plants among other things. I just finished sketching a Mario picture for one of the kids and just need to color it, still deciding what medium I’m going to use, but I am thinking a mix of paint and color pencil? Yup, fun, fun fun! But of course, it can’t all be fun… right?

I don’t know about you, but I don’t have cable or a newspaper so the way I get most of my news now is online via email newsletters or social media, and the news that I’ve been getting has been weighing on me pretty hard. I know I’m a sensitive person, as my Mom always said, but this has been so saddening for me hearing about all the evil spreading worldwide – if it’s possible – even moreso than before. I am hurt to hear about all the people being chased away, tortured & killed for their faith in Christ, though they will be rewarded for not giving in to the enemy, they are still suffering so much and it’s all I can do to stop crying. I am praying almost non-stop at times, just praying for their help and rescue. And as I get to know the character of God more each day, I know this can’t be easy for Him to watch, yet it is allowed for now. There seems to be no end to the violence, hatred, persecution, disaster, disease epidemics, genetic modification of food, chemical infiltration, the list goes on… But I am comforted knowing that my God is here with us, and with everyone who calls on the Lord, Jesus in sincerity. He is here as He always was, and His Spirit leads us to a place of peace in all situations, however long it may take, we can rest assured that His Love for us never fails and that we have something better to look forward to in the future. For those times when I’ve felt the sting remembering our loss of a child, or previous hard times in my relationships, job loss, health issues, near-death experiences, it all boils down to one thing: trust in God. He is Holding me right now in His Hands, and not just Holding as one holds a child, but really Holding me up. His Support and Provision these past 3 or 4 months has been ever increasing, and I think it’s because I’ve been asking Him to help us be ready for His Return (which is imminent btw). How else can I be ready unless I get to know the REAL Jesus? The character of God is amazing beyond words, it is difficult for me to imagine why anyone would ever want to NOT have Him in their lives, but I think it’s because in reality, those who have not tasted what the true God’s Love is like, by being in relationship with Him, would not realize what they’re missing out on hence why I pray for those around me every day that they too would finally turn to Him. And you know what? He has been working in those around me, even though it may not be obvious, I know He is! It’s all the little things that I notice about others, or about even His Love in my own life – He is a God of details after all! Yes, every detail, every hair on our heads are numbered – He cares that much!! I am so in awe of all the ways He’s been showing me He cares! Lately, I guess as I grow closer to Him, I’ve been taking notice even more, but everything He does is amazing really. Lots of free stuff given to me that I’ve always wanted but could not afford to get, little blessings and big ones, new friends, improvements in my relationships, unexpected money, healing & help… the list goes on! :) Thank you, Jesus! You Deserve ALL the Praise, Honor & Glory!!

So in the midst of my daily struggle with the world getting ever darker, I am comforted that my Savior is with me and those around me, that He Cares and His Great Mercy abounds in everyday life, we just need to stop and take notice! Too much Facebook has been causing me much time slippage, but I’m determined not to fall back into that pit, so with His Help I am going to try harder not to get sucked into the vortex of ‘social media’ as it has been dubbed. I need some time to just sit in His Presence and listen to the One Who Made me and Loves me.

God Bless!

*~Roxy~*

 

Christmas Crafts

Christmas Sign/Hanger

Mini Stockings

As busy as the past month has been and will continue to be, I’ve been really enjoying making Christmas decor, crafts and baking! That being said, I’ve also been sleeping less, so am a bit groggy in the mornings with so much to keep me busy each day that I find I can’t finish all the other projects I have to do. What’s a busy Mommy to do? :) Well, first thing I decided was to follow something my hubby suggested – to do one thing at a time! Sounds simple enough yet how many women know how to stop multi-tasking and just do One.Thing.At.A.Time? I struggle with that always, but I’m getting better at focusing by keeping this advice in mind. I find when I’m at work especially, it’s so easy to get overwhelmed if there’s too much going on at once, but if I take the time to set one task before me and purposely not think about the rest I am way more productive and less stressed out in the end. Yay! Thanks, Sweetie! You’re awesome! Anyhoo, so far I’ve sewn some homemade mini stockings for my kids, and just finished a charming Christmas sign/hanger. You can use the hanger for whatever you want, but since we don’t have a mantle it also makes a nice place to hang stockings! Bonus! ;)

Also, my youngest wanted to make cookies today so we made some yummy chocolate ones – they were supposed to be cut out cookies but the recipe was terrible for rolling so we made due and I formed them into balls, then flattened with a fork. Oh well! They still taste good. :p

Chocolate Cookies

I need to make sure that tomorrow I don’t get distracted by other cool ideas and buckle down to finish more important projects lol!

‘Till Next Time,

☆~Roxy~☆